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Another favorite surrealist piece. ‘Departure of the Winged’ Ship by Vladimir Kush
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Checking out a bunch of books from the library on how to get started and transition. If anyone has any books/recipes/websites/movies in particular that you think would help me get started, please let me know!
I’m feeling really positive about this.
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.
Yesterday I fucked up a bit and caved. Saturday night had been full of cravings as well, but I’d stayed strong. Yesterday I felt that if I didn’t give in it would start this cycle again of deprivation and, later, out-of-control bingeing. So I had a piece of fried chicken for dinner, then 2 zebra cakes, chocolate chips and sugar-free jello for dessert. Overall, it pushed my daily caloric intake to around 2300, which isn’t so bad for a “screw up day.” It was my first week back on the wagon, and I’m not surprised that I fell off a little bit. I wanted this week to just be my reintroduction into healthy eating — because gaining 20 lbs in 3 months was a long time away.
Today’s Monday and I’m back on it. I’m going to go to Zumba tonight. I’m going to eat healthfully and focus on my goals. What I can’t do is just decide “fuck it” and give up, because when’s going to be the time? When am I going to allow myself to stand somewhere between perfection and all-out apathy when it comes to my diet?
On a positive note, a skirt that was beginning to get virtually too tight to button seems a tiny bit less so today, and I’m down from 136 last week to 134.5. Of course, those could be unrelated to my efforts this past week, but at least I didn’t go up. And today’s a new week to start fresh. Maybe my goal should be to go 2 weeks before treating myself instead of just the one.
It’s all gonna happen in time. No worries.
