Checking out a bunch of books from the library on how to get started and transition. If anyone has any books/recipes/websites/movies in particular that you think would help me get started, please let me know!
I’m feeling really positive about this.
Yesterday I fucked up a bit and caved. Saturday night had been full of cravings as well, but I’d stayed strong. Yesterday I felt that if I didn’t give in it would start this cycle again of deprivation and, later, out-of-control bingeing. So I had a piece of fried chicken for dinner, then 2 zebra cakes, chocolate chips and sugar-free jello for dessert. Overall, it pushed my daily caloric intake to around 2300, which isn’t so bad for a “screw up day.” It was my first week back on the wagon, and I’m not surprised that I fell off a little bit. I wanted this week to just be my reintroduction into healthy eating — because gaining 20 lbs in 3 months was a long time away.
Today’s Monday and I’m back on it. I’m going to go to Zumba tonight. I’m going to eat healthfully and focus on my goals. What I can’t do is just decide “fuck it” and give up, because when’s going to be the time? When am I going to allow myself to stand somewhere between perfection and all-out apathy when it comes to my diet?
On a positive note, a skirt that was beginning to get virtually too tight to button seems a tiny bit less so today, and I’m down from 136 last week to 134.5. Of course, those could be unrelated to my efforts this past week, but at least I didn’t go up. And today’s a new week to start fresh. Maybe my goal should be to go 2 weeks before treating myself instead of just the one.
It’s all gonna happen in time. No worries.